It's just one of those phases, I guess; it sucks. I've been doing my usual thing and trying very hard to get this cartoon done before the year's up, but my motivation just hasn't been around. I've been so disappointed, and I've been through these feelings so many times already, but it's been at an all-time high as of late. It's like, I feel as if I don't even have a meaningful outlet, even when I'm feeling down and want to draw something or write a song, when I publish whatever I've finished, it's like no one really sees, hears, or cares for it whatsoever. I don't know why it seems like it's been this way, I mean, WAS it this way a year or two ago? Was it worse, was it better? Regardless, it feels like things have been better back then, and even though I did release a successful video, finally, it's like nearly everything that I did after that didn't matter. Maybe it's because of contrast, but I dunno, it seems like the comments and interactions just haven't really existed lately. I don't really know what's going on, is it because everyone wants something like what I did before? Are they not into the new and expect the same thing again? Does it seem like the fan-base has finally increased (or finally been created), but they're only into what they followed and not what's currently surrounding it? I guess so, but it's only an assumption. I'm generally incorrect when I make assumptions.
So to sum it up, it feels like what I've been doing and trying to put out hasn't really been getting to anyone; no one really cares, it feels like wasted effort, blah blah blah. I think, maybe, just maybe, it'll all change when I finally get this video done, but if it doesn't, I just don't know what I'm gonna do. I really want a career doing stuff like this, but I just don't see it anywhere in sight right now. Even for stupid little things, like, when I finish this novel, now what? Send it to who knows where to get it published and never hear back from them? Like, what do I do when it's all over and done? It's the "now what" phase of things; oh boy, I FINALLY finished this project! It took years and it almost killed me, but I did it!
...Now what?
-T4k
So to sum it up, it feels like what I've been doing and trying to put out hasn't really been getting to anyone; no one really cares, it feels like wasted effort, blah blah blah. I think, maybe, just maybe, it'll all change when I finally get this video done, but if it doesn't, I just don't know what I'm gonna do. I really want a career doing stuff like this, but I just don't see it anywhere in sight right now. Even for stupid little things, like, when I finish this novel, now what? Send it to who knows where to get it published and never hear back from them? Like, what do I do when it's all over and done? It's the "now what" phase of things; oh boy, I FINALLY finished this project! It took years and it almost killed me, but I did it!
...Now what?
-T4k
